Friday, November 28, 2008

untitled/unended

I admire those people who have seamlessly comfortable with changes and transitions. Those who were not bothered of worrying what would have been and what could have been. In today’s world where the past cannot be relied on to predict the future, it becomes more exhilarating for some while frightening for others to defy and embrace all the ordeals showing up our faces.

Being awakened of diversities of life, an understanding came up as life becoming more knotty and at worse thorny. The acquired conception of having your life at hand builds up a heterogeneous mixture of ideas and tons of possibilities. The enthusiasm of learning something new is a fervent attitude making us feel alive and moving. Guess this is what we call growing up, a state of maturing, an act of cuddling a new life to be lived. That is squeezing all your efforts to get into a place you planned, you dreamed of, while being uncertain of what path to take. Call it a state function! Vague. But no one is to blame, kismet is everywhere. The superlative thing to do is to move forward, continue growth. Be not wedged with the past and overcome all the turbulent reactions baffling in our way. Looking back is noble, but being stuck is another. The dare now stretch out on us, for what purposes should our time and lives be spent? Tough. What should be done to have a beautiful life story?—A meaningful one.

--call it an end for now--

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

insomniac

it's already past 12 midnight but still i can't sleep.
waaaahhh!!! i will get up early tomorrow so i have to...for sure, i have lots of things to do tomorrow so i need rest tonight. but my mind is still alert as if i have drunk ten cups of coffee. seems im getting attacked again by my used-to-be friend in college days. that feeling and alertness i need during those times when i have lots of things to do for my thesis and plant design..

for now, i want rest..i want to sleep..let me sleep

Saturday, November 22, 2008

christmas is near!!!

another reason to celebrate!christmas is coming!!!yeah, i always get excited during this season because this is where people naturally become generous by all sorts. though financially tight, people always find ways to celebrate--decorate their houses--give gifts to each other--prepare foods. Alas!it's really a yuletide season with lots of happy memories to expect. it's been another fruitful year for me. another year to be thankful for. and next year would be another year to hope for. as i wrote this blog, i'm trying to count in those things that made or will have a lot of impacts in my christmas this year.

last year was the first time my family is not complete..and this year would be the second time.

this year is my first time to celebrate as an adult--as i consider myself--with a job, away from the portals of the university, earning my own money, spending my own money, a professional, an engineer.

this time, i will be spending the season with my workmates..not much with my college batchmates and roommates that i used to be with for several years.

i just thought of one thing that hasn't change. this year, i will still be celebrating this christmas as 'single'..haha!(just had a good laugh)

anyways, im still expecting for a memorable yuletide season.. thanks God for another bountiful year. this celebration would be all for you.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

alone..unrequited

grad-----boards-----job

that was the supposed to be the sequence of events for several graduates, but for me i got boards and job interchanged. after two days of being in a sky high knowing that i passed that exam, i was back at work. not that i do not want it, but i dont know where will i be now. i dont know if i can stay and tolerate this monotony and routinic life. wake up-go to work at 8- go home at 6-watch tv-sleep and then the cycle was repeated. well, this goes for weekdays but up to know, i do not have any plans yet for weekends. that is supposed to be my leisure time. i can't explain but something is lacking. i miss the freedom. the freedom to do anything. the freedom of spending my time. the freedom of choosing who to hang out with. i miss it, them, those--i miss a lot.

i am very much blessed for having this job, for getting paid, for being with the people i am with now but i always feel there's a big BUT..i just pray to God to show me the way, to light up my blurring sight, to clear my shadowy mind, to eliminate this confusion and to give me that peace of mind--that peace in my heart.

*my title was quite out of the contents of my blog BUT those two words explain what i am feeling right now. hope this will not last. ciao for now.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

engineer at last..

i am on my victorious moment right not for passing the chemical engineer licensure examination released just yesterday-November 7, 2008, that is why there is a need for me to document and blog it...

After those 6 long months of reviewing, the Big 3 days came. I really had a hard time answering those questions but all those times that i really have no idea what letter to shade, God is always there to lighten me up. It seems he is also reading those exam questions beside me and whispering me on how to deal with it.. I was not able to answer most of the questions correctly, in fact, i think not even half but still i passed. Up to this moment, i still believe that its God's miracle that i can now be called 'Engr'. He is so great and that exam just proved that I am nothing apart from Him. He is so mighty. He's been blessing me too much especially with very loving people- my family, my friends, schoolmates, officemates and batchmates. They all prayed for me and even wore red shirts for me.

I am offering this victory to you God for I am nothing without you. And also to my family who supported and love me all the way. You are my lucky charms. And of course, to all my batchmates and friends also. We deserve this title!We worked hard for it. Congratulations to us all.