it's a new year ahead

i am looking forward for the changes that him leaving will bring.

i am looking forward with the changes that will happen to me, how i think, and behave.

i am excited that God is working and i can feel that He is drafting a new plan for me.

i will always be in awe of life.

Thank you Lord for all the blessings and the opportunities to experience what i am feeling now.

hey there jem

hello there..dan da ra ran.. after more than a year, i'm back!

and what's best to start with?

breathe in..breathe out..  been browsing my previous posts and gotta stay that nothing much has changed. This just brought me to a conclusion that im holding this filled glass (i.e burden) for a long time now, shaking my hands leaving it trembling. Got to move on dear :)

1 am 25. And soon, much as i dont want to think about it, ill have to leave the sexy and gorgeous 20-ages. Life really gets better as you age. You get to know things better and become wiser.

a note to self

Dear

What you are experiencing now is the result of your choices. You invested on the wrong man at the wrong time. And you knew that all along. And by now you know that not all love is worth fighting for.

Cry and bleed for a while. Then after, have hope and faith again. Him alone can bring it to you and it is your responsibility to yearn for it.

Things may get hard in the coming days. Always keep your self worth. You're beautiful. You're God's child. You deserve to love and be loved- wholeheartedly, no boundaries, no pretentions, not case to case basis, not only as option.

You are still young and you have time to find the one. But before you move on, a chapter of your life must first end.

Cheer up. There's more life outside. Go out!

For my husband to be..

.. I am waiting for you too :)

of loneliness

who would say it's over
all the times we shared, the laughs we cried, the conversations we used to make

who would say it's over
when tears start fallin, heart goes pumpin, frowns keep coming

who would say it's over
thoughts lingers, missing someone just keeps stronger

who would say it's over
when moving on gets harder as you see that one person..knowing that those smiles are now not for you>>

those i love the most

It is so amazing that my 2011 is a head-kick start..not by achievements but with the strength and feeling my heart contains. And I so love being like this..being happy :). I just suddenly thought of compiling the things in the worls that is making me happy. Here it goes..

1. twister fries

Chan charananan.. First on my list is Mr. Twister. Oh yes, i just so love Mcdo's twister fries and it makes my day literally complete. I can take it as my bfast, lunch and dinner -I would be the happiest.. Mr. Twister is just happiness.

2. Fireworks

Fireworks are just magical. It's different lights just brings out the hopeful kid in me. I would always love to witness the magical dances of lights in the dark sky. I feel like the sky and I are conversing whenever fireworks shoot up in the sky. Oh, how i would love to always be mesmerized by you. You don't fail to fill my eyes and heart..

3. Sunset

They say one is lonely when he loves the sunset. Well, may be true in some sense. But those who loves sunset are hopeful. It is hope that leaves darkness apart in anticipation of the coming light. It is just so adorable how God has made all the colors the sky boast off when the sun sets.

4. Baby Taissa

My cutie niece Taissa is just so lovely. And I so love her that i can forget anything once she gives me a smile. Babies are heaven's gift. You are so loved dear. Hugs.

To Nanay..

May you rest in Peace Nanay.. We love you

You will always be remembered as our sweet and cheerful nanay.

-love, jemma

on to 2011

I'm saying bye to 201o with a happy heart. I had great deals in 2010, not to mention, it was a roller coaster ride year. I was challenged..

And I'm very much wrapped up for what 2011 will bring. God has just refuel and filled my heart with strength, I just really can feel it. Thank you Lord! This will be a better year and I'm holding on to you. For no one can wrong me while You are by my side.

whatta year..

A lot has changed in a year span... I am new. Been through more than I've ever been yet much much less what i shoud get through..

I've been staring in my previous 'To-Do list' post and i really did appreciate i have listed it. One way to track my progress..what I've been doing and what i didn't. Gotta start listing in my 2011's.

happy 2 years!

just noticed that ive been writin in this blog for two years now, not consistent but still i do. i promise to keep it more often..

one thing that i am convinced right now is that in any age, even if you are out of school..you never have to stop learning. learning is not contained in the four corners of the classroom. most things you will learn from people--those who are different from you, those who have different experiences from yours. i used to go out and befriend people whom i am most similar of since we have same ideals. but this time, i learned that containing yourself in that same perspective will narrow your horizon. having or knowing someone who opposes is a good condition. it will challenge your thinking and eventually direct you to decide which way is acceptable or not--moreso you knowing more who you are with what values you keep.

To myself: Never stop learning.
It is when you are strong, when you are building confidence to yourself. :)

happy 2 years to my blog