question in the middle of certainty--when i talked about love

the momentum just came back!!ahhaa..--fast though!
i saw my page with only one post and i cant afford to look at it once more without populating it with more blogs..i've never been much into writing before but i guess i'll enjoy this new one. it's barely only me in this blogspot-- and im loving it.

for my second blog, i will talk about my lovelife. i never talked about this to anyone before and i guess you--people i dont know would have the perfect ears to listen to me. i've never been in love before. i never had a boyfriend. sometimes, i also do think if there is a problem in me but then my realization always come to 'it's not me, it's they who have problems'. Some men, yes men! are too consumed with following women with lovely legs, beautiful faces, sexy bodies that those physical perfections become their basis of selecting someone to court. Some men, though they dig dipper into the character of a woman, they would never take risks. They would love to take actions if they are sure that they will get something in return--i mean they will never be busted. i am thinking that they might be thinking that ' i will not do a step unless i saw that i have chances is you'. Tsk..tsk..Well, i am not speaking about all men but these were my experiences and i am hoping that these sightings will soon change.

i've been guarding my heart fiercefully, i never let anyone enter it. this is so precious that i am not giving permission to anyone to break it not even put a scar in it. there's someone back before who tried, though without formal approach, entering this locked,chained heart. but when the moment he knew about my principles, he stopped. guess he backed out. guess he knew that he will not be able to comply. i dont know if what i am asking is too much. but his curiosity about me just stopped, ceased, deceased, died--just like a fire poured with a pail full of cold water, the growing passion was gone. actually, i never asked him. it was from my friends whom he learned what i guess he feared of. I want my first boyfriend to be my last--my husband, my partner for the rest of life--the father of my kids--my companion when i'm old--my hugs and my kisses. Guess it is too much for him. and he knew that he will not be that person. thanks to him. he never tried to fool me. because, i guess, if he tried to pursue me, he might win me.

Well, God has his perfect creation for me. He said that I am fearfully and wonderfully made--meaning, katakot takot ako sa ganda! so i don't have to worry. Kidding aside, i know i am worth it. i will wait for the right time, and for the right man God is shaping now for me--so as me for him.